Tomorrow W will be two. We’ve already had the birthday
party, so in my mind he is a two year old. He’s a sweet, funny little kid now.
He will steal your nose and then put it back. He’ll cry for mommy and hit if he
doesn’t get his way. He’ll hug me tight and push me away. He’ll eat more than
me some nights and other nights he’ll be all done after eating one grape. He
loves potatoes. He hates potatoes. He loves Ernie and shoes.
I still cry at night when I rock him to sleep. It’s been
two years, but I still can’t believe that he’s mine. Words can’t describe how
grateful I am to have him.
It’s been 3 years since we lost our little baby boy and
sometimes it still feels like yesterday. Other times it seems like a lifetime
ago. I remember when I first started reading blogs and seeing stories where the
woman was a year or two out from her loss (or losses) and had a child. I
remember thinking that I would never get that far and wondering what I’d be
like when I got to that point. Would I have a baby? Would I have more than one?
Hopefully next year I’ll be happily on the road to a second
baby or have one in my arms!
5 comments:
We're rapidly approaching P's 2nd birthday, too...just 2 more weeks. I still cry over her all the time. ;)
And who knew that one grape was a sufficint toddler dinner? Apparently not me but P thinks that's just fine sometimes, too.
Glad to hear that you guys are doing so well! Happy Birthday, W! :)
Happy Happy Birthday W!! On Ella's first birthday, I found myself wanting to tell everyone it was my baby's birthday. I asked my mom if the feeling every went away; she said "no". I know I've said it before, and I'll say it again--you were "that woman" in the blogs who gave me hope when I needed it. Thank you! Praying for you and a new sibling for W soon.
Happy birthday to your little sweetheart, and best wishes to you, too, on these double anniversaries of events both joyous and heartbreaking. Here's to a lovely year ahead full of dreams fulfilled!
W is so loved. Happy birthday to him! But happy birthday to you...you deserve all the credit :)
You have been through a lot these past three years...I can't even pretend to know how you feel or how you are getting through it. All I know is that you are doing it, managing it somehow and still being an amazing mother, wife and friend.
All week I have been talking about that weird Time magazine cover and I have been thinking about you. Not because you breast feed on a stool (cause that's normal) but because the article title was talking about strength and endurance...Are you MOM enough?
And all I could think of was the moms like you and some of the other blogs I now read...you are stronger and have endured so much to become moms...way more amazing to me then someone competing in some mom race.
I hope this next year brings you even more joy, love and happiness. Lots of love <3
We've come so, so far! Congratulations on your LO's 2nd b-day. K's is a little over a week away. So hard to believe. We really made it to the other side =)
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