#6

I was going to keep this a secret. I didn’t want any congratulations.

But here we are. Pregnancy #6 is official. In the days leading up to this weekend, my boobs were hurting, but I’m now used to that as a symptom of AF, so I didn’t pay attention. On Sunday, though, I could feel the difference. I could tell the shapes I spent Sunday being anxious. My boobs were extremely painful and I could feel that they were denser, which is usually a game changer. I also felt dizzy and a little queasy. Then I got very nervous. I went to the grocery store and got a test.

This morning I tested. The positive line showed up before the control line.

We weren’t trying. We were supposed to start Trying Again (again again) next month. I have continued to take my folic acid and prenatal vitamins this entire time.

How do I feel today? I was shaking for most of the morning. I cried in the shower. You are not supposed to cry in the shower if you find yourself pregnant and you’ve been wishing to be pregnant for over a year. But that’s how I feel. I feel completely overwhelmed and afraid. I wanted this so much, but I wasn’t prepared for it to happen now.

In other news, I found on on Friday that M’s chromosome work up came back normal. That is great to hear. It means the problem is completely unexplained. Hooray for us.

I called the doctor and I have an appointment for December 20^th at noon. I’m waiting for a return call from the nurse so I can get my progesterone. Keep me in your thoughts, please. I need all the help I can get.