Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Doppler Post

First off - M is NOT a carrier of any of the common forms of Cystic Fibrosis. We will know the results for the other 1500 forms of the mutation in about 2 weeks. We are down to a 12% chance that he will be a carrier.

Now I will start talking about a Fetal Doppler.

I don’t know what to do. I’m nervous all the time. I know lots of you have Dopplers and you like them. They keep you calm and happy. AND you get to hear that little heartbeat all the time!

My plan would be to order it near the end of next week so I would get it close to Saturday (Oct 31). I have my NT scan on Monday morning (the 2nd). I would try to find the heartbeat on Sunday evening. If I didn’t find it, I would already be going to the doctor in the morning (after spending the night crying with fear). If I did find it, I would be relaxed for the appointment.

On second thought, maybe I would just wait until after the appointment.

My rule would be to only look in the morning, just in case I don’t hear anything. That way I can call the doctor if I need to.

But.

But what happens to me when I can’t find a heartbeat? I don’t know if I can deal with that. I don’t like the idea of it. I don’t know if I could deal with the waiting. What if I call the doctor and they tell me they can’t see me just because the Doppler doesn’t hear anything? I KNOW what it’s like to search for a heartbeat and not hear anything except my own heart racing with fear. And I was with a doctor who was trying to keep me calm.

I will need to talk this over with M. He will probably try to talk me out of it.

The 10 days between my NT scan (assuming the NT scan goes well) and my next OB appointment will be 100% scarier than the days leading up to the first appointment. I think they will be the scariest days of my life so far. I feel like having a Doppler could help me through it, but I don’t know if I could deal with the nervousness EVERY SINGLE time I pick up the machine to use it.

So, do I stress out majorly for a full 10 days with it all coming to a head on the 12th? Or do I stress out a little less every day for 10 days? Have you had an experience of not finding a heartbeat on a home Doppler? What happened when/if you called the doctor? Do you read a blog where this happened (with good or bad results)? I am 10 weeks, 3 days today. I will be 12 weeks exactly on Monday, November 2nd.

4 comments:

Mother Knows Best Reviews said...

When we were first pregnant with Maddie, I was positive that I was going to get a doppler. Then I changed my mind - I knew I would freak out if I was unable to hear a heartbeat (which is fairly likely, since I'm not a trained professional). It's such a personal decision - make sure you do what you're comfortable doing!

Alyssa said...

If my Dr. finds a heartbeat with her doppler easily at my 9-10 week appointment, I'm definitely getting one for home.I'd at least like the opportunity to try to listen to it myself on a daily basis.

Let me know if you end up getting one and what brand!

Kailyn's Mommy said...

Well from my experience I LOVE mine! The other day I was getting some new cramps, probably my uterus growing, so that night I got out my Doppler and heard lil Pea and was able to sleep well.
I was concerned of not finding the heartbeat just from it not being a very good machine but the one a few girls on here referred to me seems to be working great! I got it @ 11 weeks and have found the heartbeat each day. (i do it once a day usually @ night)
But it is a very personal decision. No one wanted me to get one including my hubby, who now loves it!
Good luck with whatever you decide.

LuckyOnce said...

I think that if I get pregnant again I'll more than likely get one, but I'm not planning to get one until I'm sure that I'll be able to hear a heartbeat on it. I know I wouldn't be able to resist using it, and I'm very sure I would freak out if I weren't able to find the hb.

I like your idea of using it in the morning so you have the whole day to get to the doctor's if there's a problem. Good luck with the decision. It's not an easy one!